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HAhahahahahahaha
Jamie and I just scared the SHIT out of Buddy.
We got here and knocked on the door and I guess he didn't hear it.
He opened the door to go back to work and FREAKED out and ran away.
It was hilarious.

SO yeah.
Now Jamie and I are playing around on their computer and stuff and yeah.
Waiting for James to get home.
Then off to Jakes.

I got stuff at Party City.
I got a cool shotglass necklace that's a green beer mug.
And I got Jake a hat that says "Got Beer?" on it.
And yeah.

Time to let Jamie check her myspace.

You always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting.
And if I chose to walk away, would you be right here waiting?
Searching for the things to say to keep me right here waiting....
 
 
 
 
 
 
After school was interesting.
I got some coffee. I swung by Jimmy's, but he wasn't home and I had to pee so I went to Speedway and got some nachos and went back. I shared my nachos with Sage and played with her for a bit, but after awhile I got tired of waiting so I called Aaron back and I went over there. It was really really weird for a little bit. We just sat in his room on his bed and all in all I felt...very uncomfortable. But then he turned on the TV and White Chicks was on so that made it better. Then Jimmy called and asked if I could give him a ride. I picked him up and we decided that he would come back to Aaron's with me so he could make the strange go away. Well Aaron ended up convincing his parents to let him 'go to a movie.' We smoked a bowl on the way to Zack's and then some resin at Zacks. It was really fun. Zack cracks me up to no end. And with Jimmy there too? It was really really fun. Then Zack had to go eat with his mom cause it's her birthday so we left and I took Jimmy home and Aaron and then I came home. It was a really fun day except the whole...Aaron/weird thing. *shudders* I just don't want boys right now. Huh Uh No Thank You Sir.
 
 
 
 
 
 
My God.





































You fucking attention whores.
 
 
 
 
 
 
We fought your wars with all our hearts,
You sent us back in body parts,
You took our wills with the truth you stole,
We offer prayers for you long lost soul.

The remainder is,
An unjustifiable, egotistical, power struggle
At the expense of the American Dream,
Of the American Dream, of the American.

We don't give a damn about your world,
With all your global profits, and all your jeweled pearls,
We don't give a damn about your world,
Right now, right now.

There is no flag that is large enough,
To hide the shame of a man in cuffs,
You switched the signs then you closed our blinds,
You changed the channel then you changed our minds.

I got myself in trouble...now I can't sleep without him.
 
 
 
 
 
 
[message on voicemail:] Hi Justin! This is your mother. It is 2:33 on Monday afternoon. I was just calling to see how you were doing. You sounded really uptight last night, it made me a little nervous, and a little, well it made me nervous, but it sounded like you were nervous too. I just want to make sure you are really okay and wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication too. You know I love ya and take care honey. I know your under a lot of pressure. See ya. Bye Bye!

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? it is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you